Sunday, May 11, 2014

Unanswered Questions

I have to remind myself all the time of the plan my faithful God has for my life. The God I love and talk to is a God who never fails to shine his light on me. He gives me a sunrise in the morning, the birds chirping, or a breeze that blows across my cheek when I need it the most. It is through college that I learned to become tuned in to  His little gifts showing me He is near. My God is one who romances me every day, but he is not a God who is always quick to give answers or show me His plan. I always want an answer right away, I mean He knows what is going to happen so why can't He just show me right now? We live in a world that needs everything quickly and I love how constant our Father is and always shows up at the right time.
Now let me just tell you, I love a good planner. I love to spend time with planner and organize my life. I like to know what is coming next and I like to have everything in order. I am not a huge fan of spontaneity. Text me at 4pm and ask me to come to dinner at 6pm? WHOA HOLD ON. I didn't have that planned. I like to be spontaneous and do fun things, if I am aware they are happening.
So it is during this time in my life. A time full of unanswered questions that I grow closer to God. It is a time where I have to rely on Him and trust His plan for me. I could go on and on about all the things I am not sure of in my life.
But one thing remains the same.
God's love.
It never fails, never waivers. He always pursues me and romances me. He blesses me with a husband who serves God, loves me like Jesus does, and prays for me daily. He blesses me with friends who even though too many miles apart continue to put in effort to keep our friendships strong. He blesses me with family who supports me in everything I do and is always looking for what's best for me. He blesses me with new opportunities and experiences in a new city. He blesses me with challenge, with the hard stuff, with drawing me nearer to Him no matter what day to day living might look like.
So I may not know what the next year, next week, or even tomorrow look likes for me. My planner may be empty, but my heart is so alive.